my kinky history

In February 2007, inspired by reading Persephone’s Submission, I decided to start a blog about my sexuality, relationships, and little girl identity. At the time, I was a few months in to my very first D/s relationship (as opposed to a casual hookup). It was the first time I’d had a Daddy or a dominant guy in my life, even though I’ve been fantasizing about Daddy/little girl play since I was a young teenager.

His name was John. Because he traveled a lot, and also because he preferred it this way, we only interacted in the days leading up to a hotel tryst. Submitting to someone that unavailable caused me a lot of angst. Reading and commenting on Persephone’s blog helped. Eventually, I found comfort writing Little Girl’s Submission. That blog became one of the most important creative and emotional spaces in my life.

The relationship with John was painful, but I learned a lot. After I ended it, a dominant man I’d met through my blog took me under his wing and began to mentor me. He created some fun assignments and rules, and helped me to explore what it meant to be submissive, and how far I was willing to go. He advised me when I felt lost, and helped me develop confidence in place of my shame. We remain good friends to this day.

I visited Persephone (Meg) and her (at that time) Owners in September, 2007. Meg and I were already close, but meeting in person brought us even closer. I’m now honored to call her one of my best girlfriends, and cherish the way our occasional sexual interactions never make our friendship awkward. I also received my very first over the knee spanking from Meg’s Owner, Andrew while on this trip. I surprised myself by taking a rather switchy, middle role in my interactions with Meg and Andrew (slightly submissive towards Andrew, definitely dominant towards Meg). This was the first time that I realized I had a latent domme side. This sort of freaked me out, and I didn’t let my dominant side out again until recently, with my Daddy.

In May of 2008, I finished my graduate program, and started working full time. Mark and I got engaged, and I began planning our wedding. With so little time to write, my blog slipped to the bottom of my priority list. And, I didn’t do much that year, D/s-wise, although I did start facebook-flirting with my old high school flame, Alan.

After getting married, I suddenly had a lot of free time. I started writing about submission again, and came up with the “Project Orgasm” series to give me something to write about every week. I also started my tumblr as an outlet for the daily dirty thoughts that crossed my mind, but weren’t sophisticated enough to warrant full, edited posts. Now tumblr is my wonderful second home, where I focus on visual stimulation (aka porn) and articulating the things that turn me on.

I decided to close Little Girl’s Submission, and move to this new space both for practical and romantic reasons. I wanted the ability to use selective password protection so I could tell my story in one place, while protecting my anonymity. And, as I’m embracing my switchy-ness, I wanted a new title that encompassed all of my potential. I also felt it was time to remove the unwanted, silly or boring posts from my archives, and re-focus my blog. And of course, I wanted a new space because I have a Daddy now. This new space is a celebration of a new phase for my submission, my sexuality, and my happiness.

Thank you for celebrating with me.

Responses

  1. i’m going to be the first person to leave a comment on your new blog! so there! i love you and i’m so excited about your new, beautiful space. i can’t wait to experience all the new stories with you here. 🙂 you’ve done a beautiful job constructing all of your “abouts.” i love the way that they introduce us to you, in so many different ways.

    love,
    meg

  2. hey l.g. i’m loving the new blog space. 🙂 fabulous job! xox

  3. Aww, thanks girls 🙂

  4. I am totally looking forward to reading all this!

  5. lg–Here is something fascinating here. It seems like marriage, which constrains many, has liberated you. It seems like all of these new sexual explorations have started since you married. I realize the seeds for them probably were planted years ago, but it’s during your married years that they blossomed! Jake

  6. I’m excited to start exploring here… Sounds like quite a journey you’ve had!


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